Words of the Cayme Family
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Words of the Cayme Family |
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Myung Moon and Hak Ja Han March 24, 2012
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I never imagined that the 4-day Divine Principle seminar I just attended (in 1987) would be my last days individually and that would change my life 180 degrees. The spirit world was so serious with me during that time. While the forces of good angels were trying their best to guide my way to the path of our Lord as early as my high school years, the forces of evil spirits were also doing their best to confuse my mind and allured me towards things attractive to my desire.... However that October 22nd was already the last shout of God's forces to bring into my attention and heart the destiny that I was called for...
I came to know True Parents as the Messiah and accepted him not through the Divine Principle lectures but thru those revelations and spiritual phenomena that occurred within 4 years from 1983-1987.
October 22nd 1987 (August 30th by Heavenly Calendar date), I declared that Rowena dela cruz Cayme (my real name) wasn't existing anymore and my life was an absolute offering to the Lord for the accomplishment of our mission in the building of God's Kingdom on earth. I cried in deep repentance that it took God 4 years before I could finally respond to his calling and if ever heaven didn't give me that ultimatum I doubted if I could be hooked that time and would be in my community of faith now.
I came back home with so much hope in my heart and delight that I have found the greatest gift and treasure my deepest heart was longing for 4 years. The records of how God brought me to this destiny were all written above as testimony to the fact that God is alive and really working with us driving all of us to our original path.
When I arrived home, I sent note to my mom who was working in Pasig City Market as wholesale vegetable vendor. In my note I requested her to immediately come home because I have a very important news to tell and share with her.
My mother trusted me a lot and gave anything I requested from her. Even when my father was alive, in our family I was the apple of the eye. There was so much jealousy actually between me and my brother because what Winny wants Winny gets. My aunts and uncles too have great favored in me. I was their favorite baby in the clan. With that trust and love from my family and relatives I had full confidence that I could witness to them easily and since they trusted me and had believed me so much, I had full confidence too that they would believe what I would tell them.
So I tried to start with my mother. As soon as she arrived I told her that Jesus had returned already and I met him during the workshop in Cabanatuan....My mother looked at me with astonished face and told me "if you will attend seminar that will lead you to become crazy, better don't join any such thing in the future". Though I insisted seriously what I believed to be true, my mother never gave any sign of agreement. She completely ignored me and warned me more...
That was a shocked to me that evening. I never expected to have such reaction. All the while, I thought witnessing to them would be so easy since they all trusted me, loved me and had confidence in me.
I cried that evening in my prayer to God and tried one more time the following day before my mother would leave for Manila again but I ended up annoying her. When she left, I tried to give a hint to our grandma who was taking care of all of us that time. However, my grandma was closed minded and didn't even dare to listen to what I was saying... I cried again that evening in my prayer to God asking Him how come I got all these unfavorable responses from the people I believed closest to my heart and the people I thought would easily believe in my proclamations. I cried a lot very desperately and asking God lots of "whys"
During that prayer time while I was singing "song of the garden", I heard another male voice singing with me. I thought I just misheard it so I stopped singing and the voice too stopped but when I continued singing, there was the male voice again. I tried to stop for the second time and continue and the same male voice followed the same thing I did. At that time, I asked my younger sister who was with me in the room if she heard the male voice singing together with me. She said no but actually her hair was standing up and had a very strange feeling when I was singing that Holy Song she had heard for the first time. That moment, both I and my sister smelled the fragrance of a flower and immediately the thought of our late father's presence came into my mind. I felt embraced thinking my father understood my frustration and continued singing loudly.
That night was the first time I felt such deep frustration in my life and lost the inspiration I had after the workshop. However, while praying, I heard God was crying too with me and suddenly the thought of God's heart longing for his children came to my realization. That's the first time I came to know God. Honestly, all throughout my Christian life I have superficial belief about God. The omniscient, almighty, omnipresent, all powerful God I knew who never have been in pain and loneliness etc. was changed to something real. I never thought God is crying too and God is experiencing pain too. That night, that feeling, that experience gave me a very deep realization and a deep thought that God is really alive and God has feelings too like us.
I never saw Him, I never had any physical feature or image of him at that moment but the feelings was so real in me that I was so enveloped by different energy when I realized that the God I knew was completely different from the God I felt that very moment.
That was October 26 1987