Limits Get You To Nowhere - Pioneer Witnessing Testimony

Roshan Foss
December 21, 2007

This adventure was unforgettable! The team, 21 days, Brown University, fundraising, witnessing, lecturing, cooking, studying, traveling, shopping, EVERYTHING... was a new and memorable experience. I am so grateful!

When the first day of witnessing came I had so much spirit built up from Sunday Service from Mr. Groendyke about True Father's work to liberate God's heart of suffering and how 2nd Gen are the hope to influence this world, going beyond God's expectations.

But that week I continued to battle myself spiritually, my fears, my doubts, my concepts... I held myself back, putting limits and walls up. I fought to continue going, to keep believing and approaching people. To overcome I kept singing our 2nd Year Theme Song (Mihwa's original) "Limits get you to nowhere, nowhere far" and "believe, believe, believe in yourself. 'Cause you can do the impossible, don't be afraid to" and "Love, love, love conquers us all, breaking down all the walls. Love, love, love gets rid of all hopelessness."

On the last day of that week was when our leaders came to visit us God really spoke to my heart through Susumu-san, then clearly showed me through people I approached in fundraising the value of God's True Love and the importance of recognizing and receiving it, in order to give it. "God's Love makes you consistent," he said, "God's love is everywhere... take a higher perspective!"

God gave me True Love through a man persecuting me, questioning why I am fundraising instead of being in college, he really made me dig deep to the real importance of being who I am, and in the end, although frustrated, I was stronger. Then God showed me false love through guys hitting on me and complementing me, making me arrogant, externally happy and self indulged. I realized how grateful I am to be pushed to find my true value rather than being praised for false value.

If I value this false love (like I have for most of my life), then that's all I can give. The more God's love I can receive, the more I will want to give and be able to give that True Love. "It is not a selfish thing to want to receive God's Love." -Susumusan.

Then in witnessing I just wanted to pour out my heart, make no excuses like "they look too busy," or "oh, they don't look like the religious type," and I really felt like this is my time with God now, if I can just focus then God has so much to teach me and so much love to give... so I approached without fear or concepts.

I prayed deeply with determination before approaching, then this was the first time I met a sister who could receive Introduction to the Principle. She was so open and all I could think about was God's love. I built up so much heavenly strength, really feeling God working and talking through me, guiding my conversations.

I realized how every experience, God our Father, is giving to us for a reason. He wants us to grow to our full potential as quickly as possible. I realized as much I believe in God, I need to believe in His power too, in the power of his love... I can't put limits on God or myself with doubts and fears, this is investment time to be God's instrument! "The Key is to first receive God's Love!"

That weekend then, I had so much determination in studying the DP, in preparation to give the Fall of Man lecture. Even though we had no guests for our first program, I knew this was laying a good condition to meet the prepared person next week.

Then giving the lecture, I felt so much passion and at the same time, very humbled because there is so much of God and True Fathers' heart and pain in it. And hearing all the lectures from our team was amazing, the Principle is so PRECIOUS! What an honor we have to dedicate our time now to share it with others.

Then I met Sophie... and amazing sister who was very open and had a free schedule to meet (only one final, unlike everyone else). Later we could meet her again and went though Introduction and most of Principle of Creation. She had so much give and take and really seemed very receptive to the Principle.

On the final day we were having a program in the afternoon, Oh man was I stressed and nervous! Sophie said she could come right after her final, before going off to her home for break. Heavenly Father helped us get this awesome room with a projector and a huge whiteboard, so we excitingly prepared our lectures and prayed for all of our guests.

As I anxiously waited for Sophie, my fears and doubts started popping up again... "what if my Fall lecture turns her away", "I can't do this", "Maybe she can't come." I was beating myself up spiritually, so worried that it even came to me that I hoped she wouldn't come, which is so ridiculous.

When Sophie ended up having no time to come because of packing and things before going home, I felt completely defeated. Maybe it was because it was my last day, this was my final challenge... but my team came through for me.

They truly supported and uplifted me, this is what family does! They encouraged me saying this wasn't the end for me, I must always have hope. I can't stop investing until the very end, because it's not over until the end! Actually Sophie happens to be from NYC, living really close to Central Park, where we can meet her easily again.

Heavenly Father helped me realize personally His parental heart. Doing everything He can for us, investing in us, believing in us, and giving us all of His True Love! Now it's time we do the same, no attachments, no fear, no doubt... as much as God loves us, let's love all His children!