My goal for this condition was to unite with my central figure, and never give up, which was our group goal. I did a confession and 40 hour fast in order to purify and prepare myself. However, I faced many challenges. I did not know my captain, Roger, and I thought I would not like him. I did not know people in my team at all. I was told we would go to Michigan, which I thought was not a good area. On top of that, I got an old MFT van, which was my van for the last 30 days. So, I was completely negative.

Once I started fundraising, I asked myself: why was I here? I knew that I needed to have clear, deeper motivation to be here. My motivation I found was to become a better person, close to God. Also, I wanted to set a better example for my sisters who were not doing so well spiritually speaking.

I realized that I needed to challenge myself more. One thing I decided to overcome was fundraising in big stores. Roger suggested me to set some conditions, like 7 people in one store. He told me to always think from God’s viewpoint, and I tried to apply his guidance to wherever I was fundraising: "I am not doing this for myself, but for God." This way, I started breaking through in big stores.

Another point I worked on was being more responsible, or taking ownership of our team. I struggled with my responsibility of converting the van, especially setting the sisters’ sleeping area. I needed to change myself, and I made efforts to make sisters happy.

I also worked on my prayer life. I used to pray for meaningless things, so I wanted to pray for the Providence. We had 40-minute prayer before the competition started on the beach at Lake Michigan. It was terrible weather, but as soon as I got out of the van, I got the desire to talk to God! In this prayer, I was able to repent for being disconnected from God all my life. This helped me a lot. From this point on, it became much easier to pray and connect to God.

On November 5^th, I really wanted to reach my goal, $350. The first run, which was 4.5 hours, I restored $40. Next run, I got dropped off in the same area to continue, but I could restore $100 in the last 2 stores. After that run, I was dropped of in old people’s apartments. Anyway, I tried to visualize a $100 run, but I was asked to leave. I tried not to lose spirit and I just kept fundraising in Burger King which was across the street from the apartments. I made over $100 there. I never did well in blitzes, but I tried to focus on accomplishing my goal. I still needed $40 to reach goal. I just kept going. At the last minute, I met a person who rejected me earlier at McDonald’s. This time, he asked some questions about what I believed. I did not have time, but I gave a quick 3-blessing lecture to him. Then he prayed for me, handed me $40, and left. Because of this person, I could reach my goal exactly!

I still need to do better, focus more, and support my team more.

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