Testimony of Connecting With God and True Parents

Talia Haibara
December 22, 2009

A victory this week during the December Competition is being able to connect with God and True Father’s parental heart of complete investment. My goal is to liberate God’s heart. I am determined to do that by centering my life on God and guiding my brothers and sisters on the frontline to connect back to God as True Father does.

During the evening blitzes yesterday I made the determination to go out and completely let go of any selfish worries about myself and focus on what my brothers and sisters needed. I wanted to do this so that I could experience the kind of selfless love that God and True Parents have for us. At one point, I had trouble seeing how some of my brothers and sisters on the frontline were missing anything.

Many of them were going out with friends, on Christmas vacation with their families, and getting ready to enjoy the weekend. Through this I could see how even though my brothers and sisters seem happy with their lives, they are missing a connection to God and True Parents.

Throughout the STF year my connection to God and True Parents has grown. During the last Hoon Dok Hae with True Father, I realized how True Father is like a parent; with a heart of love and care he does all he can to help us reach our fullest potential as children of God. Just as a dad teaches a child to ride a bike, True Father would make sure that the people in attendance were following the guidance he was giving. Even though we are only a few people in a billion, in that moment I could feel that True Father cared especially for each one of us as he talked. Even though it was early in the morning, he was giving all of his energy and love. This is the kind of selflessness True Father shows.

This is the kind of care that I determined to practice during the blitz. I wanted to let go of any thoughts of myself as True Father does. I focused on how I could guide my brothers and sisters back the love of God and True Parents. Throughout the run I struggled with what more I could do to lead them in the right direction. By the end of the run, I felt an overwhelming feeling of sorrow. I felt that I had invested all that I could to help them realize the love that God and True Parents give them. Over and over I felt that no matter how much I invested, they could not recognize the love that God and True Parents have for them. I realized that I do the same thing; God and True Parents have been longing to give me their full love and blessing, but they always have to wait for me to make the decision to receive it. I can also see this in the relationship I have with my parents, they do all they can to invest into me, yet it is always up to me to either receive the blessing gratefully or reject it.

Though, in the moment I felt much pain from that realization, I am grateful for it. I now have more determination to return the blessings. I know that the best way I can do that is to continue going out and being a channel for God and True Parents love.