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Special Workshop For The New Beginning Of Cheon Il Guk Blessed Families: Life After The Special Pardon
Vladimir Barkanov
December 8, 2006
Hello dear brothers and sisters around the world.
I want to share my experience from the 'Special Workshop for the New Beginning of Cheon Il Guk Blessed Families' (New Beginning Workshop). This workshop became really special for me, especially because it was special in unexpected way.
Unfortunately since I start family life, two years ago, I stopped my full time mission and started to work to support my family, the job was simple, eventually becoming a routine. When you get into a routine life it is very difficult to keep inspiration. And even though I saw many times that God guided me through many different situations, still sometimes my life of faith was far away from ideal. Often it was difficult to get inspiration to do Hoon Dok Hae, at evening I felt like I had nothing to report to God, so it was necessary to push myself to keep closing prayer. Only thing that really helped us to keep grateful heart to God and True Parents was our family life, because we are really grateful to God and True Parents to bless us together. So you can understand, that my spirit was far away from high, when me and my wife went to the 'New Beginning Workshop'.
All we have with us was a heart that, if True Parents say that this workshop is absolutely important for everyone, sure we will be there. We also understood that we were far from ideal, and members of the family made a lot of mistakes, so here is a lot of to repent for, giving us the more reason to participate in this special pardon.
During this 'New Beginning Workshop' for me it was even needed to push my self constantly to keep heart of gratitude and repentance. I was having feelings: 'I'm too dry internally to be here' and 'I don't feel anything'. There was another point to repent for, to be unprepared for such a wonderful grace.
After the 'New Beginning Workshop' we both felt something good inside. However, we were curious, 'Will our life change? If so, how will it change?'
Only one month later I start seeing changes in our daily lives. First of all I recognized external changes. Disease, which I suffer from for seven years, disappeared. I have been having really abnormal and random allergies, which greatly affected my daily life. I couldn't eat several fruits and spicy food. Also, I had chemical reactions to most daily detergents used at home. I visited many doctors, had many injections, and took many prescriptions, but eventually I gave up.
However, a month after the 'New Beginning Workshop' I had a sudden change in mind and ate a fruit that caused me to have severe allergy. Nothing happened! Then I tried other things that caused me to suffer, but still nothing happened. To this day I am really grateful for God, True Parents, Heung Jin Nim and Dae Mo Nim for this miracle.
I also want to share with you the internal change that we had. Dae Mo Nim mentioned during the workshop that we should not even discuss between each other of other's mistakes and to be careful what we talk about. And some how these words touched my heart, and even without special efforts such bad habits started to disappear. And I can't believe how it reflected on my relationship with my wife. It became much more nice and beautiful than before. And it is especially important for both of us because we are waiting for a baby now.
Thank you very much to God, True Parents, Heung Jin Nim and Dae Mo Nim for such a great Blessing.
Vladimir Barkanov,
Bromely Church, U.K.,
Blessing Group: 40,000,000,
Special Workshop for the New Beginning of Cheon Il Guk Blessed Families:
7-8 of December, 2006, UK.