Dear brothers and sisters, I would like to share my special experience from the 'Special Workshop for the New Beginning of Cheon Il Guk Blessed Families' (New Beginning Workshop) with Dae Mo Nim in London.

I participated in the 'New Beginning Workshop' in London on the 8th of December, 2006. It was difficult for me to understand the deep meaning of this workshop but I was touched how much God, True Parents and Dae Mo Nim love us.

I felt that I don't feel enough gratitude and understanding at what cost I received the possibility to attend this special pardon and I decided to make as much bows as I can to understand Dae Mo Nim's sacrifice. I don't have a good health so it was difficult to make full bows but after 300 hundred bows I felt that it is so difficult to stand up after every bow, that black spots are jumping in my eyes and heart is beating hard and tears of repentance came of understanding how much Dae Mo Nim loves us and what a huge sacrifice she paid for us to be there. In the night before the ceremony, we decided to pray 2 hours to set conditions to understand the meaning of workshop.

When we came to it and I saw Dae Mo Nim I began to feel that this is not an ordinary workshop. I was a translator for some Russian brothers and sisters and tried to feel how important is for us to repent and begin a new life correctly. Suddenly I felt that something behind Dae Mo Nim and looking at us. I didn't know what it was but after few minutes I saw a bright light, and feeling so much love from this light. I felt like that light looked at me and pouring much love to me.

I understood that it was Heavenly Father. I couldn't speak or move; tears were running down my cheeks and could hardly breathe. I wanted to stand up and run to Him, I wanted to say that we will change everything, that I love Him so much, I just felt that it is my Father and I want to be with Him. I looked at Dae Mo Nim and saw the same love and hope in her eyes and felt it has changed my love forever.

However, I saw that Heavenly Father cannot come to us because we make so many mistakes, that we are separated with a wall of glass. And I heard his whisper, please take this grace, I wanted to be with you for so long, I long to hold you in my arms, please let me be with you.

During Holy Wine ceremony, I saw a blue ocean and a huge platform in the middle, all our mistakes looked like a big ugly city on it but after a ceremony I saw that it sank down the ocean and only blue sky and beautiful water left. I felt that everything is prepared for us to begin a new life that we are born again.

When we drank Holy Wine I saw that Heavenly Father immediately ran to all people and hugged them that all participants were put in a golden circle and I heard Heavenly Father, saying that now He won't let anyone hurt us. I couldn't stop crying, it was coming deep from my heart because I understood that Heavenly Father was waiting for us to come to this ceremony more than we wanted to come. I never felt so much loved, I felt that I don't deserve it by Heavenly Father doesn't let me go. I truly understood that God is a Father.

This Workshop has changed my life. I will never forget the eyes of Heavenly Father, His loving hands, how much He wants us back. I understand that we are His life and more than anything He just want us to come back. I have never felt that I am so much loved and now I want to tell everyone ho much God loves people, I want to go and serve people, to help them come back to Heavenly Father because it is the most important to Him. And I am so thankful to True Parents, to all True Family and Dae Mo Nim for the opportunity to come to this workshop. I didn't know that it would change my life forever.

Dear brothers and sisters, please attend this workshop no matter what because Heavenly Father is waiting for you and He loves you so much that I cannot explain in words.

With love, Angela

Latvia (Latvia Church),
Angela Tamanova,
400 Million Blessed Couple,
Special Workshop for the New Beginning of Cheon Il Guk Blessed Families
December 2006