Here are my notes from Hyo-Jin-nim's speech Sunday 12 August 2007. My ability to convey what was actually said is limited. These, at most, convey some sense of what Hyo-Jin-nim said and are not a verbatim record. Hyo-Jin-nim's website is: www.canaanstation.com/ To see two of the projects that Hyo-Jin-nim is working on log on to: definingmoment.tv/ and definingmoment.eu/
Joe Kinney

Rev. Andrew Compton is the MC. All welcome Hyo-Jin-nim and Yeon-Ah-nim and offer a standing bow.

Hyo-Jin-nim bows to the audience as he approaches the stage.

How are you doing?

Do you like to be judged?

Do you want to be a judge?

Some people they try hard, they go to law school to try to be a judge. I guess that's something that means something to somebody in finality.

How do you evaluate somebody's worth? I was talking to somebody the other day and I just came up with line and I like it; I will share it with you. "I'm cheap; no I'm dirt-cheap; no I'm free!"

Why do we need to judge? It's because we have a lot of questions. You seek an answer when there is no answer that you can accept or that you're hearing in terms of balancing extremes. You always have to deal with that.

Life is about answering ... Trying to understand the extremes in what ever lever you are, in what ever that you do. It doesn't matter. So when you're questioning yourself sometimes if you don't have the answer and if you don't have the patience you'll answer it yourself. Whether you like it or not you become the judge.

Pretty much the free market thrives on this kind of mentality. So that's why things shift in all sorts of unpredictable ways. Because people are judging, and you make money out of their judging.

Is that good or bad? Who knows?

Do you like to be free? Well, that's your freedom.

What is the ideal world then? Is there some kind of design? Well obviously that's what we're trying to figure out. Our whole life is about figuring that out. That's it figuring that out. We spend every single second if you're conscious about that. If that's what you want to know, every second of your life you'll spend trying to figure that out.

And unless somebody can kind of give you some kind of consistency inflow up and down, you're going to be judging, and many times you can make a bad judgment. That's a possibility.

It's not just about faith. It's about action too. It's not about the foundation of faith; it's about the foundation of substance. It's about action, demands, something like that. You need that answer so you can move.

Whether I have it or not, I need that answer. If I don't have it I'm going to give it my own (answer) that's about it.

That's why we commit ourselves to many things that sometimes we might regret later on. Why? Because you question things; I question things. You question things and you need an answer, and if there's no answer, I'll make my own judgment. In other words, I'll give myself my own answer. Whether you like it or not.

Do you want to create an ideal world? OK. Keep something moving forward. Make it flow. Make it flow and keep it moving. It doesn't have to be always big, just something. If it becomes more and more and more meaningful ...

Meaningful in the end it's not subjective stuff; it's objective stuff. It's how you (the audience rather than the speaker) feel in the end. It's not what I say. To begin with I don't want to be here. It's not what I feel; it's what you feel. It's that kind of stuff that's more important.

Why do you have kids? Why do you want a family? Because it's all about you? It's about something greater. Whatever you do, the judgments that you make, if you have to make judgments, it's not about you in the end. It's about something else, more than you, bigger than you, right?

Hopefully you want to be a superstar, right? Whatever, you want to be the best, because that's the kind of natural progress in understanding God.

That's where you start. That's why you need that answer. But the world can be very confusing at times because it's messed up.

You have questions and hopefully you can have an answer around you. Just because you don't, it doesn't mean that your answer that you have to give because of those circumstances, because of the predicament ... Don't believe that is the only answer.

Then you are truly the judge. That will kill you.

Judgment ... You're going to be judged. That's what you do every day to your self.

If you want a more embracing, warmer kind of climate, then try to understand that there's the opposite too.

Life is about control right, earning control, balancing the extremes. And you go step-by-step UPWARD!

Balance is just horizontal stuff. You just levitating, that's about it figuratively speaking. You want to move up; if you want to move up keep that in mind.

Then you go to the next level, the next level, the next level.

Where ever your consciousness is at, it doesn't matter; I don't care; that's irrelevant.

It can be zero and you're still a human being. OK.

Then there's one hundred; a thousand it doesn't matter; a million, who cares?

When you move up, you move up because you know how to balance something; the extremes, in your own way.

Even horizontally you can go far too. Right? If you want to move up, that's how you do it.

If you want to judge yourself then judge yourself, because you're the one who is going to give your self the answer and say that "I can do this! ... and I did it."

Who's that? That's you, not somebody else, not me; it's you.

And that's what it is; that's how you move up.

There's a purpose for everything. Don't use it for stupid things. Know how it affects. OK? Even if you want to heal something, you have to know how things are connected, right?

It's just that. Focus on that stuff, not stupid stuff.

If you want to change the world, then try to get to know what is real about God.

I don't know who's providing that; that's what I'm chasing too.

That's the only way to do it. I believe that. We try.

My reason is a little more personal so it might be a little different, but it's the same thing in the end. We want that stuff, all of us. It doesn't matter how you get there, how you come to that conclusion of trying. That's all we want in the end.

That's the universality. That's what love is. Love can bring every person under the son to life, to try.

OK

Taps podium twice