It is hard to know exactly where to begin sharing this recent experience of the reality of the spiritual world. My experiences related to Dae Mo Nim's tour impressed upon me again how God's providence is advancing so dramatically in the fight against evil.

Because of the efforts of our True Parents, God's glorious son and daughter, who have to lived a life of such tremendous sacrifice and indemnity, we have been incredibly blessed. There are no adequate words that express our gratitude and humility before Heavenly Father and True Parents.

I am so grateful for the grace that we could receive through Dae Mo Nim's visit to America. Heavenly Father showed me so many things which helped me to realize more deeply the reality of our situation today.

In his speech on August 1st, True Father described the impact of the Fall of Man: "The Earth became Satan's playground. Can you imagine how torn with sorrow and grief God's heart was? There are no words to describe it: it was a horrid, wretched situation. How many tears have you shed out of sympathy for God and His plight?" Later in the same speech, he said "Even as we speak, cries of pain can be heard in many parts of the world. I ask you to be aware of how important your roles are as leaders who are concerned about the future of humanity and who are working on the front line for the realization of world peace."

In her speech at the Washington event, Dae Mo Nim said that she was surprised to learn how much the original sin had made an impact on the spiritual world. She also told us that one the most difficult tasks is when she has to go to look for our ancestors in the spiritual world. I realized that this is the very thing that I had a firsthand glimpse of this time as we prepared for Dae Mo Nim's visit.

I have been very sick this past year, and even more so recently.

Because of my illness, I have experienced chronic fatigue, and have to rest a lot. On the Sunday before Dae Mo Nim's visit, we made final preparations of our forms for ancestor liberation, and submitted everything after Sunday service. Then that afternoon, I had a profound experience in prayer; I felt God's heart and anguish (han) so deeply, that I just cried and cried.

Over the next few days and nights, God showed me the reality of the evil spirit world, more clearly than I have ever understood before.

Dae Mo Nim uses the example of the movie "What Dreams May Come" to describe the reality of the spirit world, especially what it is like in the lower realms. Those same images are the best way I can describe what I experienced.

Even though I usually need to rest a lot because of my health situation, I could barely sleep or rest over these days of final preparation for Dae Mo Nim's visit, because what I was experiencing of the reality of the lower spirit world was so indescribably upsetting.

My stomach was tied up in knots; I felt like someone was literally twisting my internal organs – it was so painful. I felt so much anguish that all I could think about was "Oh my God! I just want this to end, to stop, to go away!" But there was nothing I could do except to endure. Because of this, I realized deeply how it feels to be just stuck in evil spirit world, with no way out. I understood that this is the reality of our ancestors, experiencing such agony with no way to escape.

At times like these we are also reminded that we are in an intense spiritual battle, even though we may be unaware of the seriousness.

This was dramatically impressed on me on the night before Dae Mo Nim's program. My husband Jim has an important providential mission, and that night had to return to his office to prepare some special reports. On the way there, another driver ran a stop sign and hit Jim's car broadside. Our car was totaled, but miraculously Jim escaped serious injury. The other car plowed into the driver's side of our car, into the rear door. With a split second difference, he would have crashed directly into Jim and caused very serious injury or worse. Jim's colleague, Howard Self, went to the accident scene to help. As Howard looked through the car, he said, "Jim – here is why you were protected…" as he found Dae Mo Nim's education booklet on the back seat right where the other car struck.

After all this turmoil, finally the intense spirit world around me began to leave. I cannot describe how grateful I felt, just to be relieved of those feelings and that experience. As the day for Dae Mo Nim's conference finally arrived, my body was very weak, but my spirit was strong and ready for this important day.

The program was very meaningful, and it was so good to hear again the background of the Chung Pyung providence. So much sacrifice and devotion has been invested, so that God's grace can be shared with us.

When Dae Mo Nim spoke, I took her guidance to heart seriously and deeply.

Then I began to notice that as the time approached for the ancestor liberation, the same intense feelings of evil spirit world that I had experienced over the last few days came back again. I could feel spirits all around me, anguished and struggling. My spiritual senses were opened, and I could even smell such a bad odor that it made me nauseous. But this time I knew what was happening and why, so I was not afraid. So many ancestors were gathering, even from lower realms of the spirit world, so that they could be liberated.

When we began the special Holy Song session, Rev. Jenkins explained that the quality of our hearts is most important, that if we invest complete sincerity we could benefit as much from this brief time as if we had participated in a 40 day workshop. His advice resonated with me deeply, and so I invested everything from my deep heart and soul during the session. As the session ended with the liberation prayer, I could actually feel the evil spirits leaving my body. Words cannot explain the feeling of liberation and release that I had at that moment. We are so blessed, beyond our understanding, by God's grace at this time of His providence. I am so grateful to God and True Parents, and to Heung Jin Nim and Dae Mo Nim.

When we arrived back home, I was so exhausted I could barely move. Later in the night, I had the most beautiful spiritual experience. I felt overwhelmed by God's love. The most beautiful pictures of singing and dancing appeared in my mind, and I felt God's love like never before. When I got up in the morning, the same feeling of God's love came back, and my mind was filled with many inspirations.

Usually I am very reluctant to share my thoughts and experiences publicly. But when my husband suggested that I should write down my testimony of this time, I immediately agreed, because I knew that this experience was not only for myself, but really is from Heavenly Father. I knew that I should testify about the reality of the spirit world, about the great blessings given to us and to our ancestors by True Parents through Heung Jin Nim and Dae Mo Nim, and most importantly about the profound love and grace of God.

I really feel that this marks yet another opportunity to make a new start for God's providence. God's love and grace for us is unending, and truly overwhelming. Just a glimpse of God's heart reminds me of the words of the Holy Song, "I can never stop feeling, how unworthy am I."

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