I got blessed in January 12, 1989 to a Brazilian brother named Antonio Barbosa das Graças. I joined him in Brazil in November in the year 1992 leaving behind my beloved country The Philippines but really offering myself to my new country Brazil.

It was not easy for me. I went through a lot of struggles because of a strange country, strange people and especially the new language which I thought before so difficult to learn. At that time, I really wanted to go back to the Philippines, but of course my faith and love to God and True Parents made me stay and overcame all of those struggles.

Not only that, my husband was so stranged for me. It was a great, great test for me, how to learn to heartistically accept my husband. All my fallen natures came out, my husband really suffered the way I treated him before. I considered myself at that time really such the worst person on earth treating badly my husband.

My struggles were: 1st his educational background that he was just entering High School and second that he was a simple member. I was just so arrogant at that time. But on the other hand, I talked to my husband honestly and frankly why I was acting like that, I said it was not me because deep inside me I really wanted to accept and love him since he was purposely given to me by True Parents and it's not my intention to hurt him.

I told him to help me change that I really wanted to succeed in the blessing. My husband offered a lot of conditions to really help me. It took a long time for me to change but really my faith, my devotion to the church and my husband's patience and support brought victory to the success of our relationship.

I repented a lot of what I did to my husband and really in front of him I made 7 full bows with tears of repentance and saying to him that it's me who's not worthy of him because he is so humble and has such a very, very good heart. From that time on, I just really serve and really love him.

With all those years living with him, I can clearly see that he is my real Messiah; he's saving me and really making me a better person. All the time when we talked at night sometimes until dawn, I'm thanking him for being patient with me and really loving me as his wife.

More and more our relationship is becoming just closer and closer, he's just so comprehensive and a very deep person. I really thank God and True Parents for giving me such a wonderful person to live with eternally!

I started at zero in Brazil, just really starting at the bottom. After arriving from the Philippines in 1992, I was immediately sent to the kitchen to fulfill the 40 days condition. Before, all the foreign wives have to undergo 40 days kitchen condition before starting a family.

But I decided to offer myself as a full-time member in Brazil for 3 years because in my mind it was very strong that if I will serve the nation, then I can learn to understand and love the people, their customs and traditions and especially in this period I can fully understand the Portuguese language.

My kitchen condition was prolonged to 7 months and after I was given the mission to work in the Women's Federation for World Peace, Brazil, fundraising and witnessing for more than 2 years. It was really true because within this period I learned to love Brazilian nation, the people, their ways and traditions, the language and especially I learned to love my husband.

So in July of 1994, my husband and I started a family and in April of 1995 our daughter, Soon Jin was born. Her name means, pure innocence and simplicity. At the end of 1995, we became a home member since my husband and I started to work outside, me teaching English and my husband in a frame factory.

Since then, we started our home church providence in the place where we were living. I brought most of my students and colleagues to the D.P. seminars and some church events. From that result, we were able to gain spiritual children, some of my students who are very good families were restored, one of them was the ex-director of the school where my daughter is studying. She's the owner of a certain college in a small town near São Paulo.

In the year 2003, I was called once again to work in the Women's Federation for World Peace as a secretary and my husband was called also to work at the HQ as one of the building's caretaker. Then in August of 2005, Rev. Heung Tae Kim (our Korean National Messiah) assigned me as a National Secretary of the Blessed Family Department of Brazil.

My Central Figure is the daughter-in-law of Rev. Kim, married to his eldest son, a Korean. His second daughter -- in-law (a Japanese married to Rev. Kim's youngest son) was assigned in the 2nd generation department. It is really a great privilege to work with second generation children but it's not easy, heartistic conditions are needed and I really have to establish because they are just so pure, hardworking and very vertical.

Up until now, I'm still in the Blessed Family Dep't. This is not really an easy responsibility, it's so challenging, and so much patience and comprehension are needed. The struggle that I had before with the blessing and how I overcame it helps a lot for me to guide and support blessing candidates and newly blessed couples, especially those who are having great difficulties in the blessing.

This department is really gradually putting in order the disorganization and disvalorization in terms of the concept of the blessing of Brazilian members. We held various seminars for the purpose of preparing blessing candidates and the external requirements of the blessings was almost copied from Korea, it's very rigorous and blessing candidates were well screened.

Now we will be holding seminars to prepare newly blessed couples to start a family. In the future, we're planning to hold seminars for blessed couples who already started family life, how to help strengthen their relationship and build truly a strong and ideal families.

Aside from all these seminars, we did other activities like visiting blessed families in their respective local churches and holding an event in December of last year, the photo and singing contests for blessed families.

Being with the Blessed Family Department was not enough for me. I felt a certain emptiness because I really wanted to do a tribal messiahship mission in the hometown of my husband. Thanks to the encouragement and internal support of the couple John and Masayo Santillan with their successful tribal activities in the Philippines, it gave me a strong motivation to start the mission.

Although, it's not easy to have two missions and working outside at the same time but I have no option but just to do it. It's much easier for me just to concentrate the tribal mission but I just can't leave my present mission now in the Family Dep't. since many people are depending on me and many people whom I wanted to continue helping yet but if my Central Figure will liberate me, of course willingly I want to concentrate with the tribal activity because I felt that this is the basis of everything being a church member.

Without building a strong foundation in our tribe we're just nothing in the spirit world. When we die, God will ask us how many people have we loved and have loved us on earth. How many people we have restored and received the blessing.

Now, doing the tribal mission, I'm more contented and more inspired doing my mission and my other activities. This is really God's energy and love!